How does it really feels to have someone likes u? …
How does it really feels to have someone likes u? I never felt that.
It’s sumtimes amazing how certain people change you. Your emotions, behaviour, attitutes.
Especially when you are kinda fond of that individual. Her small queers and habits and way of life just sumtimes soak into you like, as though you are a little sponge.
Like me, for instance. *Sheeplish smile* Nearly everytime i fall into this little trap called l.o.v.e. it just sort of change me one way or another.
My ex hate open mouth yawn. Now everytime i yawn, I was reminded of her.
Hee, Hui Peng hates people shake their legs while on a seat. Now everytime i did that, I was reminded of her.
Now, I learn NEVER to people watch.
It’s just so…. er how would you call that, influencial. Ya that’s the word. When you like or fond of a person, you are influenced.
Emotions changed too. It seems like everything she said or do (or NOT DO) makes you think more than twice. You slowly became selflish, not understanding to small small things happening around her. Sum things and actions of hers became hurtful to you. And you become always paranoid of offending her.
You feel vulnerable. Especially when your eyes are closed. It’s like, plain darkness, and her face appears. It happens aplenty, trust me… 
How many times have i fallen into this trap? I lost count. It’s part and parcel of my life… It becomes situations where i fall into the trap and any gal who accompany me down to there, never really falls in at all. It always seem like I was the only one going in to find myself alone.
I always bid my time. And i climb up from that treacherous hole everytime I fell in. But never unharmed. Always suffered bruises.
I would like to say that this is a blog piece about my inner side. It’s not for people to understand or read too much into. As I said, many a times, hurt as I was, I always manage to escape death from that treacherous hole. l.o.v.e.
P.S. BTW I am not SAD! Got dist for proj *YES* … SO dun think tat my solemn, serious writing signifies my mood. Just don read too much into it.
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