About acceptance and feeling happy

I have been doing a lot thinking recently. Actually I think all the time, all sorts of stuff. My friends call me emo kid, self pity boy, and names like that. It’s understandable actually, I am really sure an emotionally needy person.

How can a day be complete without a bit of self degrading?

Anyway, I was doing some self searching and i realized why I am always so emo, it’s because i simply refuses to accept facts and situations in life. Sometimes, it’s as simple as accepting it. There’s no need to be crystal clear, how others feel. When I see something that’s not going my way, instead of accepting it and move, I wallow in my self pity and then starts going all emo crappy and shit. I start to speculate, come out with my own conclusions, blah blah.

Not only is it social suicide, it shows how weak and feeble i am in the mind. I really shouldn’t continue this crap.

School is starting in a week’s time, which is like woah, so fast! My holiday is full of emo crapness, and i really hope that it doesn’t over spill to the school days. Haiz.

Rock on.

~ by eclecticderby on January 3, 2009.